A few weeks ago, my husband and I were thrown a huge curveball. We found out I was nine weeks pregnant and didn’t know. It has been a whirlwind of crazy thoughts, pure exhaustion and asking questions like ‘how did this happen?’
After we found out, this verse was put in front of me Proverbs 16:3 “Commit your actions to the Lord and your plans will succeed.” I’ve been dwelling on it ever since because I had not committed one single thing to the Lord and had just planned my life. We had been planning a trip to Europe for the summer and every time we plan a trip, I get pregnant these last three years. There is a whole back story to that statement around infertility which you can read here: https://heathervshore.com/happy-thanksgiving/
We had also planned on spacing our children out, so they would be two years apart. Notice the ‘I’ in all this. It was all about me and not at all about God. So, how can we commit our plans to the Lord? Several things are obvious such as prayer, reading the bible to seek direction, writing in a journal to see life progress or regression and talking to your mentor. But what do you do when God decides your plans are not best and his are? Respond with joy and thanksgiving. One of the hard lessons I’ve learned during this season of motherhood is to respond with thanksgiving. No matter how tired, cranky or hungry I am. Psalm 9:1 “I will praise you, LORD, with all my heart; I will tell of all the marvelous things you have done.” Even if it isn’t on your time table, the Lord’s plan are to be responded to with praise. The more you practice praise, the easier it becomes.
God decided to truly mix things up and give us the gift of having our children 15 months apart. And God decided my husband Mike and I could handle this. The silver lining in this is that my husband will be done with grad school and I will no longer be doing parenthood alone. God will make a way regardless of the outcome and help anyone navigate that next big thing. Boy are we still in shock, yet excited at the next chapter in our life. Our 9 month old is excited to be a big brother!