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Happy Thanksgiving!

Posted by on Nov 20, 2014 in Book, Health, Kids | 0 comments

Happy Thanksgiving!

Live with gratitude and appreciation. Make good choices that produce residuals. (Matthew McCaughey)

Gratitude is the quality of being thankful; readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness. Gratitude is something I have this Thanksgiving and it’s an attitude I’ve had to learn along the way despite my circumstances. My life past the age of 22 took unexpected twists and turns. Change had to happen in my attitude in order for gratitude to become my norm.

Each twist and turn, aka challenge, has changed me into a more compassionate human being. This is or hasn’t been easy. The biggest challenge these last two years has been infertility. In August of 2012, we were pregnant with our first child. Somewhere in my gut I knew something was wrong. We learned our baby’s heartbeat wasn’t there at 9 weeks. My body had no clue I had a miscarriage. What an interesting word to come to know. It never occurred to me this could happen. And yet it did at the age of 34. The wave of emotions I went through was something I was not prepared for and neither was my husband.

As we moved forward, we became pregnant again and again and lost the 2nd baby in February 2013 and the 3rd in June of 2013. We took time off in between the 3rd and 4th pregnancy, received infertility testing, and became pregnant with Harrison in October 2013. He was miraculously born June 2014.

The highs and lows of this journey are too numerous to count except one: gratitude. With each step, I consistently heard the Lord saying to not give up and to be hopeful and grateful. Grateful for the death of 3 children? I needed to be grateful for the fact that I could get pregnant, grateful for being in Denver again at one of the top fertility clinics in the world, grateful for money to go to the doctor and grateful for my faith and loving husband.  In addition, the people God surrounded me with were gifts too. The people I’ve met who have been through the infertility journey are amazing and have done it with grace and beauty. These women and their families have shown me gratitude is possible despite our circumstances. We are called to give thanks no matter what.

Giving thanks and being grateful despite our circumstances are a part of sanctified living. “Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good, his love is everlasting.” Psalm 107:1. God wants to and does cultivate in each of us the awareness and attentiveness to the gifts that arrive each day. In this process, we come to understand the marvels of God’s integration and acceptance of our whole life story. “For in all things give thanks to God, because this is what God expects you to do in Christ Jesus” 1 Thessalonians 5:18. Let’s not be afraid to look at everything that has brought us to where are now and trust we will soon see in it the guiding hand of a loving God.

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